breaking all the rules

I hate it when it happens, breaking all of the rules that is. Lately it is happening more and more. That bothers me, but I can't seem to get out of this downhill spiral that I seem to be on. There are mom rules that everyone knows about. Sometimes they get broken or bent, but at least when you are trying your best, you can be a little forgiving to yourself. I am not feeling this way at all. I have been a monster to my kids, they are afraid of me at times. I can see it in their faces. Man, that hurts.