Tuesday, June 26, 2007

always thinking...

Sam is a kid that has always asked bizarre questions. Totally off subject sometimes and it never fails to catch me off guard. Today, he and Elijah are running their pretend(but don't tell him that) restaurant named "Oh Brother's" and Sam is the manager. He is sitting at the table and counting out his money and says "Mama, if a kid is a manager, would you call him a kidager?" Why would I worry about his IQ scores when I know that his brain functions like no one I know? Man I love that kid.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Ahh...Summer!

Summer is good. From as far back as I can remember, this time of year is the best. As I have gotten older, I realize just how much I depend on the sun to even out my moods. You can pretty much count on someone being unhappy in this house if it is cloudy outside. Mainly me, since I know it will mean that one or more children will need lots of prompting to find something to do for longer than 5 minutes. Honestly, I think the more "things" that kids have the less they know how to entertain themselves.

School is out now. Both boys had a successful year in their respective classes. We are moving to a new building in the Fall, I am fully prepared to spend some time with Sam again (kindergarten was a full month!) although I might be pleasantly surprised. I asked Karen (his teacher) if we could come in the week before just for him to walk around and touch all of the light switches/orient himself, and she said that would be fine.



Elijah's baseball season started two weeks ago, and the team is doing well. It seems to be a mixed age group of kids about half and half 7 and 8 year olds. He is an absolute freak about this sport. His team this year is the Diamondbacks and "the boys" are together again. Fun watching how they have grown and changedover the year. He is also doing two weeks of soccer camp.



Sam started an OT/Speech camp that is two days a week. It's focus is on peer interaction and he has goals that relate to his specifically and what he needs to work on over the summer. Two days down and he is enjoying himself. His behavior has been challenging to say the least.



This is when the PDD-NOS gets me down. He really can't be trusted sometimes. His impulsiveness and anger is explosive at times. I know he feels frustrated and it revelas itself as anger. I just wish I could show him how to communicate and not feel so stuck when it comes to getting along with others. I worry that other kids are going to shun him because of his temper or inappropriateness in his use of language. He really just wants to be "one of the guys".



These days the love and the pain I feel for him are about equal.

Friday, June 1, 2007

This should be easier...

I don't know why I think that it should, but I am bowled over by how difficult this is. I am just not a good faker, I can't pretend to be happy when I am not. This sucks, it just plain sucks.